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It's good to express your emotions to someone. From experience, keeping tight lip about my problems does not do me good. All the hurt and pain accumulates deep inside my heart. Without me knowing, it bursts into a tremendous eruption.

I talked to my friends in school and pretty much had their advices as well. They are mothers and understand both perspectives. So ... it was rather interesting. They made me feel a lot better. I feel as if a burden had been taken away from me. They do not know the existence of my blog but ... thank you.

Rin and Maira, thank you to you too. You girls don't know how blessed I am to have such good friends like you! From the bottom of my heart, thank you. You two managed to bring a smile to my faces despite my situation.

I am not on talking terms with my mom right now. My mom gives me that silent treatment whenever we 'fight'. It seems that I am the only one who she does that to. She could easily reconcile with other siblings when they fought. But not me ... Sometimes I do feel left out in this family. Like, unwanted ... being treated differently ...

Or maybe, that's just my feeling?

I follow the genes of my mother aparently ... I am very sensitive. The slightest thing could hurt and break me ... I may not show it but I'm such a fragile human being. I have lots of insecurities and complexes but that's what make us humans ... We are not perfect.

That's why I turn to my blog and friends ...

I am upsetting myself again. Haiz. Let's change the topic ...

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I'm excited for the field trip to Little India on monday! We need to pick a theme about indian culture for our assignment. My group chose the topic food so ... we are gonna taste a few Indian delicacies! We have to describe the taste, texture and so on ...

Sambil menyelam minum air ...

Hehe ...

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I'm feeling very frustrated!!! ARGH!

Can't even express myself at home ... I have a love hate relationship with my parents. After a tiring day at school, I had to face problems at home ...

The way she words her sentences just hurts, damn it! What I feel, my feelings, doesn't give a damn to her! Can't even show my frustration or hurt in front of her as that act of expression is considered disobedient. How more conservative can she be?????? I know she came from a very conservative family but this is just too much! This cannot, that cannot ... I've had enough of that! Whatever I do will never ever please her!

It's somehow suffocating to be in this family who has lots of rules and regulations. Too conservative, too much control. Sometimes I wish I could be free ... even if it means the freedom is limited. I'd rather have that than nothing at all.

Hadn't cried in ages! Usually the one who always make me cry is none other than my mother.

I love her, but I hate her. So bittersweet ...

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I went to Arab Street alone to search for the shop that sells head scarf (Arab style) at 4 for $10. Pretty and cheap! :D

Awaiting anxiously for the premier of Twilight saga: Eclipse, which is months away. Wani and me are a total Twilight fan. We're a big fan of that awesome franchise. A minority might say 'what is the big deal of that saga'? All I can say is ... people have different taste. I'm enjoying every bits of it!

The main and initial purpose for this post is ... I edited another photograph! :P

The scarfs that we wore were brand new at that time! We were so 'kiasu' and played around on putting the long scarf. Wore them for the sake of taking pictures!


I loved this shot of my sis! Simply beautiful! The lighting especially!


I however wasn't happy with the shot she took of me! Hana and I always complained how bad of a photographer she was. Her angles is always ... weird.


Something ... obviously shifted my attention.


And ... I can't help but edit one photo!



More pics uploaded at my FB! :)

So ... IPhone is the 'In' thing now? Glad I am not the type of girl to follow the trend. Otherwise, I'll be broke by now. IPhone sure is cool where you'll get everything in one handphone. But that is something I cannot afford right now ...

Maybe in the future when it's not popular anymore, and the price reduces tremendously?

I am content with my beloved mp4 and Canon camera ...

2nd January 2010

Family were told to wear green for the special occasion. Green is my least favourite colour but the colour tone I picked turned out nice. I like it. I absolutely hate dark green.

The ceremony started from 2pm till 9pm. I came early with my family to help out. It was tiring but fun. I like what malays call 'bergotong royong', a sense of helping one another to make the event a success.

Quite a number of my cousins from my dad's side are married / have children ... I feel a little envy of them. One day, insya allah ...